Monday, April 12, 2010
Please indulge my complaining
I know I'm going to get a big 'I told you so' from my mother on this one but hey, sometimes (more than I'd care to admit actually) your mom is right! I'm starting to see the wisdom of raising you kids close to your family. There, I said it... MOM!
The reason this comes up is because I'm dying for a day (or two) off. It's been since early December since I've had more than two or three hours away from motherhood and that was to go to work so it wasn't really a break. And in the last months and a half or so we've had our issues with Oliver and his changing schedules, sleeping issues and him just being 1 and getting into everything. It's exhausting! I've called my mother many times to complain and ask for advice and I've got a few comments along the line of, 'Well if you were closer I could watch him for a while and give you a break'. How I wish I could take her up on that. A date night with my husband, a weekend where we could both sleep in, a day without whining...insert whistful sigh. I know, that's what I signed up for when we decided to have babies. I get that, I accept that but I'm still a person and sometimes you just need some time to yourself. And just to add to my complaining, living up here means that even if we found someone to watch Oliver here, where would we go?
Unfortunately, even though we will be heading back down south in a few years, I doubt we will ever live within babysitting distance of our parents. I do hope that I can do what my parents did with me growing up. I was shipped off to spend the summers in Ontario with my grandparents and I loved every second of it. Some of my best memories are of that time so I hope to give Oliver that same experience.
In the meantime, I have three months and a week till I head back south to wait for the baby to come. Then there will be family galore to give me the time I'm longing for. Too bad I'll have to wait till September for that date night since Nick won't be coming down till then but I can wait. Let the countdown begin.