Friday, November 12, 2010

Sadly, 2 is enough.

Today Isaac is 7 weeks old. He's practically busting out of his 0-3 sleepers and I'm putting them away to sell in the spring. Earlier this week I went for my postpartum appointment where we discussed long term birth control options. Sniff! My baby years are behind me.

 I find it strange that I'm sad about that. I was never the girl who dreamt of having kids. It wasn't till I went through a pregnancy with my friend Tracey that I thought. "I need to do this"... but at the time it was only because I felt the need to know what if felt like to have the baby move inside me. Once it was my time, I realised that I was a natural baby maker. I know I complained alot during the last few months but over all, being pregnant was the time in my life that I felt the best. I loved my baby belly so my self esteem was way up. The labours where easy and extremely short (6 hours and 3 and half hours if I can brag) and my kids are great sleepers so even a few weeks in I feel fantastic and relatively rested. And you KNOW I cook some really beautiful kids. It seems like babies are the things I do best in life and now that's over.

Don't get me wrong, I am perfectly happy with two kids and have no desire to have another. Most days lately I feel like I should have adopted 5 year olds so I wouldn't have to deal with the frustration of dealing with the terrible two's. I'm absolutely sure that we're done but I mourn none the less. There are lots of things to look forward to but I can't help but be sad. But just a little.


Matt, Kara, Hunter and Cavan said...

You two do make some cute ass kids! Not sure how that happened.. heheheh

So are you going to send your hubby for the big snip snip like I did? Best option out there! hehe

I feel good about just have two, especially after yakking for two pregnancies and the massive blood loss during labour. But whenever I hold a little baby I almost want another!

Morena said...

I know Kara! You would expect me to have cute kids but with Nick being the father.... hehe.

No snip just yet, I repeat... YET.

Chantal said...

I know how you feel. I had to stop at one for a few reasons, but I constantly think about the what ifs. I really would have liked to have two, although there are advantages to having a smaller family too!

Aida said...

i am pretty dead set on just 2, but i do mourn it too, i would love more but right now my family is perfect. and its like karma, every time i get an itch, the kids drives me insane. i babysat a friends baby not to long ago b/c they had to run some errands, babe is 3 months old, she cried so much! i told myself, my gosh Aida, you've done this before, think. but i was numb, i guess i am so used to toddlers/preschoolers now.

i am esp loving my kids age, yes the fights are hard, but i wont trade them for the world.

i have the mirena IUD, i must say i love it alot! i havent had a period since Ben was born!